Reproba Luminarium (False Light)

A fleck of glitter fell to me
Just a fragile piece of art
This tale began with a choice
So I held the speck close to heart

The glitter can't help, and it can't see
It can't change the fact that it's stuck to me

It won't wash off
It won't go away
Do I want it to leave?
Or shall it stay?

So pretty and bright
On my hand it alights
To sting skin and sight,
Bring sickness, pain, and blight

Cuz it made me feel good
I felt ever so fine
I chose to let it stay
It sparkled and shined

Now the glitter can't help, and it can't see
It can't change the fact that it only hurts me

Though it catches not my eye
That false light that gleams
It looks appealing from afar
Those treacherous light beams

Red, green, and a little bit of white
It came ever so quiet on that lonely night
And even though my prayers I do recite,
The glitter glares and it's still not alright

Burned out I lay awake
Pondering, "What shall I do?"
But answers do not come
And so this misery ensues

So leave me alone
Just let me be
This tale ends with a choice
Get away from me

U

One of my many love-sick-high-school poems.

Fleeting thoughts

Slip my mind

They chase around

But never fulfill

Everything

Is out of place

I’m alone here

Behind a face

The U-shaped piece haunts

Until it returns

All is incomplete

Like a pool of

Deep emotion

Tides push and pull

Sinking under

The U-shaped piece haunts

Until it returns

I still will wander

Missing a piece

The puzzle apart

Tears to shreds

Chokes out the heart

The U-shaped piece haunts

Until it returns

All remains undone

There Still Remains

I wrote this poem a few years ago for a Valentine's poetry contest in my school newspaper. It reflected a very real time in my life where I was struggling with problems of the romantic sort.

Your train stopped by

Late one autumn

How could I know

I’d hit rock bottom

The pieces flew

In every direction

The image of you

Only a broken reflection

Now I sit in this mess

Looking for peace

Searching for rest

I breathe in this smoke

Regretting every day I never spoke

Despite my crashes,

There still remains

Love in this wreck

Love in these ashes

Without you

I’m lost in my head

Wandering in the dark

Walking among the dead

I still hold onto

The things you said

The way I felt

The way I bled

Your words are

Clear as mud

But there still remains

Love in this darkness

Love in this blood

This all has to soak in

Our silence must be broken

What can I do?

I’ll never forget you

I’m fixing these pieces and parts

There still remain open arms

And love in this heart